1. Anne CAN put forth effort. I’ve seen her grit her teeth and wrinkle her forehead as she strains to move her left arm. Seeing that effort has to be one of the most encouraging aspects of these last three weeks.
2. Anne has a fierce temper. Anne is soooo stubborn and gets angry when she feels unstable – which is most of the time. Today, while she was doing squats, she got especially mad and started to yell something ugly (which she knows she is not allowed to say). The therapist asked her to do 10 squats. Each time she would say the “forbidden” phrase, we would have to start back at 1. She got to 5 – and then she yelled it: “I’ll bite your butt!” So we started over. She got to 2 – and yelled again: “I’ll bite your bu-!” She thought if she left off the ending “t,” it wouldn’t count. But we started over. We got to 3 and Anne started to yell, and then thought better and said, “I’m MAD!” Victory. Anne exhibited reason and self control. Amen and Amen.
3. Anne has many obstacles to overcome. The greatest of which is fear. Anne has the physical ability to walk with the least amount of assistance. But she can’t overcome her feelings of fear each time she feels the slightest bit off-balance. If Anne walks independently one day, it will come after years of “persevering -never-giving-up-hard-work.”
Which leads me to the fourth thing I’ve learned…
4. I can’t believe I’m writing this, but… I wouldn’t trade Anne’s broken body for her former healthy self – simply because of the character she will develop in overcoming her disabilities. Special needs children have amazingly strong spirits because of the amazingly large obstacles they have to overcome. Anne has put forth an inspiring effort over the last three weeks!
I confess that I’ve spent way too much time focusing on my “seen” circumstances instead of the “unseen” promises in God’s word. I’ve been overwhelmed thinking of how much work it will be for Anne and our family to continue her recovery. But just as I take pleasure in seeing Anne’s effort and perseverance so does God take pleasure in me – even in my weakest efforts. The key is leaning on Him for strength for the moment – and not worrying about where the strength for tomorrow will come from.
So the fifth thing I’ve learned…
5. Living in my own strength leads to exhaustion and burn-out. God has given me circumstances that force me to lean on Him. Even though I hate it, and get so angry… and stubborn… and I feel like yelling, “I’ll bite your butt!” – I’m thankful that God would care enough for me to give me such an honorable task as to care for a special needs child. And for this, I am grateful :-)
3 thoughts on “What I’ve learned during Therasuit therapy…”
HOORAY on a G’zillion different fronts. Hope you’ll put an anchor down to mark this feeling…..so you “find” it more easily next time you’re overwhelemed and swamped.
Continuing to envision you surrounded with His Love, Light, Hope and Peace…..
I’m very proud of these 5 things that YOU have learned. Anne is not the only one who is making progress! Special Needs children need lots and lots of time, perseverance, and patients! It’s only normal that they get frustrated and mad! We all do when we are fearful and can’t do things that we want to do so badly! At least, Ann is learning that losing her patients isn’t rewarding! I’m most proud that you have accepted Anne as she is! She’s a precious child of God! God wouldn’t have given her to you as she is if he didn’t have faith that you could handle all that you encounter with Anne. God’s not through with Anne! She’s a work in progress! Lean on God whenever you need to! He’s always there for you!
God is in control!
Wow. That’s all I can say! I’m so thankful for you k. Thank you for sharing!