I’m just tired of being sad. This December, I sorta went into an apathetic shell. Thinking back, I think I was just protecting myself from the grief that comes around the holidays. But that shell just got sandblasted. I just need to learn that it is okay to be sad during December.
In 30 short minutes, a new year will be here, and I feel a bit sad. But I’ll say that sadness is a notch better than apathetic, because at least I’m feeling something :-)
But don’t worry. God is here. He always is.
May Anne continue to make progress in 2013! And here is my list of “gratefuls” for 2012.
Key Lime Pie
Anne’s crooked smile
Special time with Kate
Erin and Stacy at church
French Horns… (I love the melancholy tone of a french horn)
Late night movie watching with Eric
My Wednesday bible study group
Mrs. Bush (Anne’s para-pro)
my new iPhone
and finally… the story of Joseph (from the Bible).
God is good. Happy New Year.
4 thoughts on “Lost December”
God is always good. Amen. Hurting with you. Happy New year
Yup, it’s OK to be sad in December, and sad as you welcome in a New Year.
Just sitting with ya.
And, lifting you up.
Yes, Kathryn, it is okay to feel sad. I understand. I used to struggle with Christmas when we had to travel instead of being able to enjoy family traditions in our own home. Finally I realized I needed to enjoy that season of life for what it offered rather than regret what I could not have. I realize you are facing a far greater challenge, but I do pray that you will be able to hold on to every joy and encouragement that comes even when it is almost imperceptible. I pray God’s healing for Anne and that she will know how valuable she is to Him and to all of us.
Sorry I’m late responding to this, but I’ve had the flu since December 31st. Better now, just a nagging cough!
You have every right to be sad, Kathryn! I can’t begin to understand. I’ve not experienced the pain that you have.
I read everyone of your posts and feel them. I know that God is in your heart and your life. He is good! He knows our every single need! He’s worked miracles through Anne, but He’s not through with her yet! She remains in my thoughts and prayers daily, as do you and your family. 2013 holds as many miracles and maybe even more than 2012. Everyone who is connected to Anne and your family is very thankful for the miracles God performed in 2012. We pray for even more miracles in 2013. I know each and every day presents challenges, but remember God doesn’t give us more than we can handle. Also, always remember…God is in control!
God bless all of you!