The following is a copy of my last post on Anne’s CaringBridge site. Thank you for praying and supporting us during the last two years, and thank you for continuing to follow us on my blog :-)
It’s been two years since our accident.
This will be my last post on the CaringBridge site. In the months following our accident, this site was a source of great comfort as so many of you wrote words of encouragement and offered prayers for Anne’s healing. She has made great progress and continues to grow and change in positive ways… but, we are left with the harsh truth that there are parts of Anne’s brain that still have significant damage. We are now learning to live with disability.
Anne still doesn’t walk independently, nor does she have the use of her left hand. She is cognitively challenged by a limited attention span, and she will struggle to keep pace with her peers academically. Yet Anne has many strengths to help her compensate. She is verbally strong and has a deep-rooted desire to love and connect with others. She has an amazing sense of humor and a compassionate heart. She is weak in body, yet strong in spirit :-)
Despite the difficulties of caring for a disabled child, I am struck by moments of inexpressible joy (1 Pet 1:8) and a peace that surpasses understanding (Phil 4:7). These moments are made possible only by the Spirit of God producing them for me. God knows there is nothing inherently joyful and peaceful about caring for a brain-injured child! However…. “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible” (Matt 19:26).
I also take great comfort in knowing that God is sovereign. Our car accident wasn’t a case of us being in the wrong place at the wrong time. I don’t think I could go on if I believed I lost the daughter I knew and loved to brain injury just by chance. God’s word assures me there is a purpose for our pain, and therefore, we have the strength to carry on. But I also rest in God’s goodness. Even if I don’t understand His purposes in the here and now, I know that one day I will look back and see that His purposes were good.
So when kind-hearted people ask me how Anne is doing, my response is that she is “good.” Even though the question is directed to her physical and cognitive recovery, I’m not thinking of that. No, I mean that her person is good. God has a purpose for her, disability and all, and that is what is good.
Thank you for being with us these last two years. The ministry you’ve served in our lives is deep and oh-so-meaningful. You’ve carried us and sustained us, and we are so grateful. Feel free to continue to follow our family on my blog, kathrynJackson.com. We are moving on from recovery to adjusting to our new life with our new Anne. We would love to share our journey with you :-)
With much love and gratitude, Kathryn
5 thoughts on “Two years.”
You are an incredible mother, Kathryn. When I think of you, often the conversation pops in my mind that we had on a walk one afternoon, a couple years before the accident. Canon was riding his bike and we were pushing strollers. You were pushing Anne and Kate in a double stroller and I was probably pregnant with Elijah (can’t remember!) and pushing Israel in a stroller. I will never forget your words. “No matter what, God is good.” I had gotten bad news from a friend AND I was struggling in motherhood. How could I be a good mom to TWO babies when I felt lacking as a mother to ONE?! I see now how GOd used that to shape me into who I am and who I am becoming today. And you are really living that out, K. You continue to claim that God is good. What a testimony! Love you, friend!
What an incredible journey, a faithful God, and blessed servants. Much love to the Jacksons!
Wiping away the tears and praising God for continuing to teach all of us so much through Anne’s beautiful Spirit!
Great post. Love following you on your blog! Angie
Looking forward to seeing God’s newest work and how everything unfolds.