Eric has been very encouraged with Anne’s progress lately. He’s posted two very uplifting journal entries on CaringBridge. I’m thankful that he’s so positive because I’m struggling. I’m struggling to see God’s goodness, and I’m struggling with hope.
Caring for Anne at home is so emotionally draining, so physically demanding… I’m tired, and it’s only been two weeks! So I pray from Psalm 27…
1 The Lord is my light and my salvation;
whom shall I fear?
The Lord is the stronghold of my life;
of whom shall I be afraid?4 One thing have I asked of the Lord,
that will I seek after:
that I may dwell in the house of the Lord
all the days of my life,
to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord
and to inquire in his temple.5 For he will hide me in his shelter
in the day of trouble;
he will conceal me under the cover of his tent;
he will lift me high upon a rock.7 Hear, O Lord, when I cry aloud;
be gracious to me and answer me!8 You have said, “Seek my face.”
My heart says to you,
“Your face, Lord, do I seek.”9 Hide not your face from me.
Turn not your servant away in anger,
O you who have been my help.
Cast me not off; forsake me not,
O God of my salvation!11Teach me your way, O Lord,
and lead me on a level path
because of my enemies.13 I believe that I shall look upon the goodness of the Lord
in the land of the living!14 Wait for the Lord;
be strong, and let your heart take courage;
wait for the Lord!
Crayons In My Water 
Amen – I am praying with you!
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Amen and Amen.
Continuing to lift you up, Precious Mama, as you learn to dance with the challenges of the day! (All while realizing that this is no easy task, with a dance as complex and challenging as yours.) Yet knowing: He is the Lord of the dance, the Creator of the music….the One who can make your heart light and your feet fly. May it be so, this day and each day in it’s turn.
….carrying you in my heart throughout the day, as do a host of other folks (guess you must get jostled around a lot that way, grin).
Much Love and Warm Support continue to flow, as do the Prayer-Songs
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Lu, I love that your last name is wings. God has already made you like an eagle in your heart, I can’t wait to see you when the earth and the heavens are new and your gait matches your soaring spirit!!!! You are such a beautiful encourager! I love reading your words. They are like music to my heart, too!
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Kathryn,
I think a lot of us are struggling with different areas of our life. I think it is because we have our lives planned out in our head and then when we don’t end up where we thought we would be we question God and believe that somehow we have been denied something or wronged in some way. The only way I can come to peace with my own tiredness of life and struggles is to truly think of God as my father. There are so many things my children want and see as absolutely necessary to live but I know that they do not need it and refuse to give it to them. Does this mean I love them any less? No, and God is the same way. Our little Annie is not who she was and not where you expected to be but God saved her and there is a reason for that. We may not know the reason for a long time but I know it is all that matters. Also, I think to the lyrics of our song we love so well, “This is not, this is not our home.”
I love you and miss you all. Tell my favorite honeybee I love her.
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Continuing to pray for you, sweet friend! From Col. 1:11
“May you be strengthened by all power according to His glorious might so that you may have great endurance and patience and giving joyful thanks to the Father who has qualified you to share in the inheritance of His people in the kingdom of light.”
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Oh, do I ever understand this. I cling to Habakkuk. Not only in my time of healing from cancer and my infertility battle, but always –because I share in your suffering and love you; and because I see much pain and suffering in the world. Today’s sermon (6/19/11 by Paul Gardner) couldn’t be more timely.
I must continually remind myself , “though the fig tree should not blossom and there be no fruit on the vines, though the yield of the olive should fail and the fields produce no food, though the flock should be cut off from the fold and there be no cattle in the stalls, Yet I will exult the Lord, I will rejoice in the God of my salvation. The Lord God is my strength, And He has made my feet like hinds’ feet, and makes me walk on my high places.” Habakkuk 3:17-19
I pray we will continually remind each other to wait and hold fast to the knowledge that God is beyond time and space and our finiteness and we can trust Him. Not easy at times, but that is why God gave us each other as encouragement and help.
And to anyone who reads this and does not know me, God has healed me. He has also made me the mother of three children. Though we never know how or when He will answer us, I marvel at His testimony in my life and in Anne’s!
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